“Wake up, Grow up, Show up.” – said my teacher in one occasion and from that moment on everything changed for me.
You see, I was very overwhelmed with all my everyday activities as a Mother of a young child. Somehow all those ten+ years of yoga and meditation practice have not prepared me to the challenges of Parenthood.
As years are passing I am getting more used to the uncertainty which is everso present in my life as a Human Being .
I have woken up one day to the reality that my skills and the kind of approaches which I have inherited are not enough.
Not good enough to create the life what I desie to see around me.
Therefore I’ve embarked on a journey of a self discovery and hired many coaches and participated in many trainings to evolve as a woman, as a mother, as a healer, as a writer, as an artist, as a lifelong researcer of the mening of life.
I am on my personal pilgrimage. Deep down in my core I am an artist. But throught my life not many times have been courageous enough to express my art because I have preceived that Noone is listening! For so long I was in a loop of “I am not even trying, because I just waste my time.” But what is “waste of time, if not that, when we are hesitating and questioning instead of listening to our inner voice what is so clear and loud”?
I turned my back to my artist-self and with all my effort I have tried to inhabit the self which I whished has more recognison that my abandoned inner child.
I have woken up to a feeling that I am missaligned and as soon as I have excepted I’ve started to mature. I have started to take more responsibility to my actions and see the causality in between “who I am” and “who I am tried to be”.
This is a new awakening and probably not the last one. A new circle begins as I show up every day at my desk, as I light a candle and sit down to write.
I’m committed to meet my inner most wisdom more often. I ask her with more curiosity and open mindedness. I look for answers from within and find the meaning in the simple presence of letting through what is.
I ask who am I speking to? Who am I speking for?
Does not matter who is listening bacause my attention is here. My attention is not scattered and I am not spreading myself thin as easily as I used to.
Sit with me for a moment and feel the pulse of your own life. Can you hear it? Can you feel it? Can you express it?
I am who I am. You are who you are. I let you be. I let all my parts be. I give voice to my artist. And insted of stay silent with a grip in my throat and a feeling of sinking, I let rise up my inner fire to protect my desires by speaking up.
I am in the process of redefinig my values and corse correct my business and therefore my everdy living. I am in the process of integrating and circling up in a new level of understanding myself therefore the world around me. I am in the process of creating my new account on Instagram and share all my art and poetry. Find me there or find me on my website or on my YouTube channel and get inspired therefore we create a container of resources in which beauty is the guiding force.
Take care, be well,
love,
as always
Viki
viktoria maczo 