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The magical gift of my lineage

by Viktoria Maczo, posted in 13 Moons of Circular Living, Closer to the Sun, Inspiration

Dear one!

Let me introduce myself!

My Name is Viktória Julianna, mother of Anna Kincső (means treasure), daughter of Anna Erzsébet, granddaughter of Anna and Margit, greath-granddaughter of Erzsébet and Anna.

Great-great-granddaughter of Gertrúd, Erzsébet, Jozefin and Julianna. Katalin, Anna, Erzsébet, Julianna, Rebeka, Borbála, Anna és Zsuzsanna are my great-great Grandmothers mother’s name. And I know two of the names of the many of my lineage after them which is: Katalin és Veronika. All these womans came from my mother’s side. From my father’s side I only know my grandmother name. As I grow up I was as lucky that I have heard stories about my great-grandparents from my mother’s mother.

So today – as I rember my ancestors – I look into our family tree -, I feel all these 64 woman’s strenght behind me, and the blessing that I can hold my daughter’s hand. As I stand in between them I grant them with my heartfelt gratitude. 18 of them by having the gift of saying their names and to the rest with a rememberance in my heart and with a silent bow.

The healing work I do (and re-do) on myself is my gift to the generations behind me and to those in front of me.

My daughter is almost six years old and I have beeen studiing about many modalities of healing art for over twety years. This inner search made me able to stand here today. Now I understand myself better, as I understand my Nervous System better. Now I am able to take care of my daughter with much more resiliency, love and compassion.

I was a yoga and meditation teacher before my daughter was born. Now I am working on finding my way back to the upper world holding a quest dearly in my heart: “Who I really am”? I feel now the hardest part in behind, but I am aware that so much more is on my way. However as I develop more and more Jaguar strenght in my energy field the fear in me is less and less.

I feel so deeply humbled. I sense today’s energies. I light a candle and I say a prayer.

The rest remains in silence ♥️

With gratitude and hope,

Viki

13 Moons of ciclical Living -Resorceful Reawakening

by Viktoria Maczo, posted in Uncategorized

In June as we are showered with the Full Moon energies, I would like to share with you a practice, which always helps me to reakindle my dormant potentials.

These days I am about to restructure my life as we are getting to the half a year mark as well as closer to Matariki. In New Zealand Matariki is the Máori name for the cluster of starts known to Western astronomers as the Pleiades. The rising marks the beginning of a new year in the Máori lunar calendar.

This current of new begining is what I feel right now.

You see I have a very close connection to these stars. As a young woman I used to enjoy to dance under the starlit sky, in the warm, balmy nights of summers. The Pleiades was one of the starcluster I learnt to find on the sky and I never missed to chek its position. Later on in my life I enjoyed everso dearly to hear all the stories and myths about the 7 sisters. When I moved to New Zealand and discocvered how much significance has here, my heart rejoced and I felt in my bones that I arrived back home.

This recognition was a work of my heart.

The heart is an alchemizer. However as we progress forward in our timeline, as we grow up, we experience many unplesant feelings as well. Many of us are facing the challenge that it seems like we are not accepted in our small or even large community in that raw way as we are.

We get traumatized. And trauma is overwhelming for the emotional body therefore we are confused to feel. We develop our own way to deal with our life and we miss noticing that how freezed our inner being become.

We are story makers, everthing depends on the stories we tell.

About ourselves, about our experiences, about our past and our future. Everthing depends on it that you allow yourself to dream or not…

Your trauma depends on the story you tell about yourself. Can you see now?

The meaning does not comes from the cover up stories we make but how we are making our life meaningful is; to living it in the present.

Your body keeps all the memories alive but the heart has the capacity to alchemize your emotions.

So stop repeating those stories which causes suffering, and start telling new ones!

This is why I feel that writing is very important in the process of EVOLVEing.

Writing is how we teach ourselves to tell stories. To retell the old ones and to create new ones.

I invite you to a future writing! Prepare the right evironment in which your writing can flow! Disconnect from your everyday life, swich of your devices, and get your journal out! Take a few conscious breath! Meditate! Put a nice, inspiring music on, light a candle, make your favourite beverage to enchance this writing exercise! Then Start, by imagining yourself into your desired future. Feel it, hear it, sense it! And then put your pen on the paper and just let it flow!

I am happy to hear from you! About your discoveries in your next best possible future life!

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Take care, be well,

love,

as always

Viki

13 Moons of Circular Living – Evolve

by Viktoria Maczo, posted in 13 Moons of Circular Living

“Wake up, Grow up, Show up.” – said my teacher in one occasion and from that moment on everything changed for me.

You see, I was very overwhelmed with all my everyday activities as a Mother of a young child. Somehow all those ten+ years of yoga and meditation practice have not prepared me to the challenges of Parenthood.

As years are passing I am getting more used to the uncertainty which is everso present in my life as a Human Being .

I have woken up one day to the reality that my skills and the kind of approaches which I have inherited are not enough.

Not good enough to create the life what I desie to see around me.

Therefore I’ve embarked on a journey of a self discovery and hired many coaches and participated in many trainings to evolve as a woman, as a mother, as a healer, as a writer, as an artist, as a lifelong researcer of the mening of life.

I am on my personal pilgrimage. Deep down in my core I am an artist. But throught my life not many times have been courageous enough to express my art because I have preceived that Noone is listening! For so long I was in a loop of “I am not even trying, because I just waste my time.” But what is “waste of time, if not that, when we are hesitating and questioning instead of listening to our inner voice what is so clear and loud”?

I turned my back to my artist-self and with all my effort I have tried to inhabit the self which I whished has more recognison that my abandoned inner child.

I have woken up to a feeling that I am missaligned and as soon as I have excepted I’ve started to mature. I have started to take more responsibility to my actions and see the causality in between “who I am” and “who I am tried to be”.

This is a new awakening and probably not the last one. A new circle begins as I show up every day at my desk, as I light a candle and sit down to write.

I’m committed to meet my inner most wisdom more often. I ask her with more curiosity and open mindedness. I look for answers from within and find the meaning in the simple presence of letting through what is.

I ask who am I speking to? Who am I speking for?

Does not matter who is listening bacause my attention is here. My attention is not scattered and I am not spreading myself thin as easily as I used to.

Sit with me for a moment and feel the pulse of your own life. Can you hear it? Can you feel it? Can you express it?

I am who I am. You are who you are. I let you be. I let all my parts be. I give voice to my artist. And insted of stay silent with a grip in my throat and a feeling of sinking, I let rise up my inner fire to protect my desires by speaking up.

I am in the process of redefinig my values and corse correct my business and therefore my everdy living. I am in the process of integrating and circling up in a new level of understanding myself therefore the world around me. I am in the process of creating my new account on Instagram and share all my art and poetry. Find me there or find me on my website or on my YouTube channel and get inspired therefore we create a container of resources in which beauty is the guiding force.

Take care, be well,

love,

as always

Viki