Hello Beautiful Souls,
These days I am wonerdering on how could I come back to my grounding practices in the midst of my irregular circumstances. During these summer days what I experience, is that all my schedules falling apart and my to do lists are changing faster then I could folow. Now as a mother of a 5 and a half year old I am not even try to force back the regularity and my rutine into my sunshine filled days, but I allow the time of the year’s gentle magic act on me.
And this approach itself made a huge difference on how I feel myself right now.
Because of this, it has happened that many of my forgotten dreams came back to me. Therefore I have been surprised by how much aliveness and joy I’ve been feeling when I engage with these inner callings and don’t let them pass.
I feel eager to wake up and start my days as I am experiencing this process of redefining my identity.
I am questioning what my values really are in diverse activities and taking that luxory that I gracefully shift toward what feels good at that moment. As I grow a kinder personality by developing a new vocabulary I feel so much freedom. For so long I felt I have lost this feeling… I am talking about this feeling of – having a wide range of possibilities – what we posess so effortlessly as a child.
I am in the process of honouring my rhytm and experience how this ability is getting better over time. The “old habitual ways” of hurry up and feeling shame has been expired in my system. Because I practice witnessing that how my body feels when I am under stress. This way I learn to distance myself from the feelings and observe them from a new perspective. I learn to draw boundaries around my deep sense of me and protect this luminous core in me as I honor my artist within.
Yes! This is one of my discovery: How this artist has been lost and has been silenced in me long time ago. I pay attention to the stories this part tells me as I sit down every day to write.
A new way of sensing, a new way of experiencing what has been emerging.
When sadness and anger comes I invite them with curiosity because I know they are the messangers of healing needs to happen and they voicing that right now all circumstances are safe enough for me to handle these strong feelings.
As my soul has been waking up, my feelings are pulling me back to the upmost important inner work, which needs to be done. A brief drop in – a light touch on my heart takes its magic. I FEEL what is there without the need of changing it.
GENTLENESS and PATIENCE is my daily practice.
Re-defining my values are a big part of this inner work.
I am in the state of wonder…
I wonder how much more possibility lies in front of me as I approach my life from my safe place!
May you laugh easily and forgive readily,
may your days be fulfilled with gentle magic and heart-opening wonder!
Love,
Viki
viktoria maczo 