…into antifragility
I have been thinking. It’s been a process, and I am still in it. However I feel I have made a tremendous progress.
I am a Mother of a six year old lovely little girl. By her presence I have been slowly but surely changing. I have been made a progress to reconcour part of myself which rested in the unknown until now.
I have to admit it’s been the most challenging journey of my life. This one is.
Looking back each stage of this journey I find something which made me more confident, more open, more loving and the same time more vulnerable. What is different now is: that I see this vulnerability as my fuel, I use this vulnerability to build upon and not swept by it. Yes I am sensitive but also I have strength for two. I have found my inner resources.
Throughout our years together I’ve met many aspects of my Shadow. Those parts of myself which were in my own underworld. Through becoming a Mother, through my everyday interactions with my little one, through all challenges which I have faced so far, like a huge ice cape my unwanted and rejected parts of psyche started to reveal itself.
Uncertainty and constant change shapes my inner and outer world. But after a lot of struggle, finally I am in a forward motion, I keep growing my roots toward my core with more self-compassion and self-love.
These days I am in a process of finding my true voice, my authenticity, with more and more ease because I have surrendered to this process of becoming. Of course I have good days, and not so good ones like everyone else.
These days I understand I am in a quest of redefine what my values are. I regain a new understanding of my self worth and with that, I ease into a more robust, more heroic version of myself.
I learnt more about my self-care needs. Now I accept myself more fully. I use my days well, like I have only this one left. I have no regrets in the end of each day. Instead focusing on my mistakes I give gratitude and this attitude changes everything! I have a deep commitment toward growth.
viktoria maczo 